Yup.. sooo i sort of that girl who sits here and wait.. wait for someone to approach her to talk to her.. someone to offer going out.. someone to go buy a drink with.. someone to send her revelation.. guess what? i've been waiting sooo long for something... and i suddenly realize... when i changed my philosophy about dating i should have just applied that logic to everything!! /:

what was the change?

well.. see nong time ago nong nong time ago... i use to think when i dated guys must do this and do that and i have to wait for my date to ask me out.. i have to wait and hope and pray he does something spectacular for valentine's day or my birthday.. hope that he wants to spend his birthday with me.. call me at nights or start a msn convo or sms me... and all that WAITING around for him to initiate anything.. it suddenly dawned on me.. at age 20.. WHY DO I HAVE TO WAIT?!!!! if i want to talk to my own boyfriend.. I SHOULD JUST CALL?! if i I WANT TO GO OUT.. i should just ASK!.. i know it is like "DUHHH?!" on some of your faces.. but its a REAL BREAK THROUGH FOR ME.. hahaha.. cause i usually sit there bitter /: and grumpy.. now i believe in a 50-50 thing.. more like free for all to ask la.. both guy and girl can ask and take initiative in the relationship:) if i want to go picnic.. i just call the guy.. ask him to go out.. tell him where and buy the damn food on my own.. i don't have to sit there and HOPE one day he'll make my dreams come true and bring me on a picnic.. i should just kick his butt of his chair and bring him along with me:) soo there.. i made a resolution and stuck with it:) it kinda works i guess.........

Back to original topic

Sooo like i said.. i should just apply this to everything.. i was sitting here.. hoping that this person would talk to me.. NOT IN A ROMANTIC SENSE.. like in a concern sense.. waiting and waiting.. then i was like HECK IT i'm gonna sms.. yeahh.. we had a simple chat over sms.. and there was some sense in it..

soo what am i trying to say? IF YOU ARE WAITING FOR MAGIC TO HAPPEN.. forget it.. DO IT YOURSELF! :) ** well i still don't believer girls are allowed to initiate the first move... but other than that.. ** GO FOR IT:D