Monday, December 27, 2010
Merry Christmas:)
Its been quiet huh:)
Anyhow.. so i have this one last present to give.. and I've been trying my hardest to meet up with the person.. we just keep missing each other.. its sooo annoying.. sighh.. i wonder if i should even bother.. well i have my jian reasons.. i never got around to treating the meal i owe.. SOOO.. yeah i bought this gift to "pay back"... i think i'm being too whatever about it.. but i really would like to close the year without "owing" anyone.. and i want to leave the past behind already.. CLOSE THE CHAPTER! MOVE ON! actually no.. i dunno why i feel like if i do this one thing.. i would have even out everything and i can finally pretend nothing happened.. by "repaying" or "replacing?" what happened in the past with substitutes i can cancel out whatever happened then.. doesn't make sense.. but it makes me feel better ehh.. SIAO HOR.. okay it is obvious i am not ready for anything.. well school is starting and i shall leave everything behind:) a fresh new start with a new year:)
Blessed Christmas and Happy New Year
Monday, December 20, 2010
what a day...
oh wells.. as we chilled under the escalator at ion we wondered for a moment how our friendship will be like once we have boy/girlfriends.. ideally... i would like a boy who is friends with all my friends.. and i say this cause I WANT SOMETHING SERIOUS.. i can't be bothered with the awkwardness if things don't work out and what not.. like seriously I HAVE one year left before I have to give up on my dream to get married at 24.. So i guess i can write down on my new year resolution list "To find a boy" :) and for 2012 i can write "To keep the boy".. For 2013 "To get him to propose:)" For 2014 " To get married:D" HAHA.. resolutions 4 years in advance.. but yeahh if i don't find the guy next year then nevermind la.. time to find a new dream.. OH WELLS.. there is always that puppy in the window.. :) SCHOOL IS STARTING =O
Saturday, December 11, 2010
i look back on my life...
i realized a few things. i screwd up a lot but yet i'm still here.. i could be so much worse but i am so much better i think.. its not about resilience shaping a person but i seriously think God really watches over.. ever wondered 'why am i not the african kid? or that girl in the sex trade? i must live in a bubble...' so i googled: what are my chances being born into poverty?
Ans: 3 out of 10.
gosh aren't we extremely blessed.. with such odds i think there is a significant probability that i might be really poor.. liking in a hut... and wondering what on earth is this language called english? or maybe i wouldn't exists.. if i were born in china.. i'll probably be buried... SO... *i can see my poly friends clicking the x button* haha..
conclusion: don't be petty dudes and dudettes.. i shall not buy my dream LV shoes till i'm 40 and my kids are fed and not starving.. :)
Thursday, December 02, 2010
Speak now, Taylor Swift
hmmm she sounds pretty different live eh! not as smooth! but her recording is nice:D i like her song not her..
I hear the preacher say,
"Speak now or forever hold your peace,"
There's a silence, there's my last chance,
I stand up with shaking hands,
All eyes on me,
Horrified looks from everyone in the room,
But I'm only lookin' at you,
I am not the kind of girl,
Who should be rudely bargin' in on a white veil
occasion,
But you are not the kind of boy,
Who should be marryin' the wrong girl,
So don't say yes, run away now,
I'll meet you when you're out,
Of the church at the back door,
Don't wait or say a single vow,
You need to hear me out,
And they said, "Speak now,"
And you say,
"Let's run away now,
I'll meet you when I'm out of my tux at the back door,
Baby, I didn't say my vows,
So glad you were around when they said, "Speak now,"
Sadly i don't have such courage.. HAHA.. hence i'm always left here wondering.
~wonder all day and night~
