Tuesday, August 31, 2010


Why am i sooo pathetic -.-" WHY..
Gonna
1. pack my room
2. find myself in the mess
3. wonder how could i possibly have failed yet again
4. stop deluding myself
5. stop making excuses
6. look out for me

If i am looking out for you, are you looking out for me?
I keep searching and looking, but you ain't there.
Who are we kidding but me?
When my world is falling apart
When there's no light to break up the dark,
That's when i look at you
When the waves are flooding the shore
and I can't find my way home anymore
That's when i look at you

But you aint there.


Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Fly away

NOT. GONNA. BOTHER.
i must have cognitive dissonance, and change my mindset to that..
So that i can absorb WORK WORK WORK.. eat sleep dream= WORK.
i cannot stand it already..
Work shall distract my thoughts..
i can't just sit here and wonder and ponder and wonder...
): alrights..



Saturday, August 21, 2010

Shadow of my heart
I need to clear my head before i can do my work, especially after watching Melise video *awww.. *

1. why have a girlfriend or boyfriend for? <-- they aren't pets sooo what's their purpose? *i clearly have commitment issues*-.- *a clear sign of never having a stable relationship*
2. why are there SLY expectations in my head? :( i thought i had none? boooo... i thought everything i do, i do it with excellence and thats all..
3. JOEL's ABSENCE is the cause of all the FB SPAM.. come back quick.. -.-" okay done.. done..

now to work.. :) shall not make sense of anything.. nonono... too much boggling.. things can only get better:D i hope.. one step at the time..

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Contemplation
If I Had My Child to Raise Over Again
by Diane Loomans

If I had my child to raise all over again,
I'd build self esteem first, and the house later.
I'd fingerpaint more, and point the finger less.
I would do less correcting and more connecting.
I'd take my eyes off my watch, and watch with my eyes.
I would care to know less and know to care more.
I'd take more hikes and fly more kites.
I'd stop playing serious, and seriously play.
I would run through more fields and gaze at more stars.
I'd do more hugging and less tugging.
I'd see the oak tree in the acorn more often.
I would be firm less often, and affirm much more.
I'd model less about the love of power,
And more about the power of love.

Loves this poem:) shall put it in my essay:)

Wednesday, August 18, 2010


today is ALWAYS my least favourite day of the week.. most BORING lecture on EARTH.. i wish we had the liberty to skip class.. MAYBE that will send the teacher the message she should CHANGE her teaching style.. in early childhood we learn to reflect and have AGE APPROPRIATE lessons.. soo standing up randomly and singing some song and hopping around is definitely NOT appropriate.. i know we are studying about PLAY.. but to children's play and adult's play are DIFFERENT as stated in the many articles i have been reading cause class is so boring.. soo argh.. i wanna say GROW UP.. slept in class today AGAIN.. sian.. cannot like that la.. i wanna learn something USEFUL but its gotta be there first and foremost.. WASTING MY TIME.. AHHH.. ):

to make my day better, i will goooo photobucket surfing:) my favourite past time.. bleah missing jo.. i can't wait for you to start school jo hahaha.. ironically i DREAD that sarah is gonna start school.. buttt oh wells i have green tea to comfort me when sarah gets her IPHONE in UK:) right adddy? hahaha.. remember to bring black sesame seeds along:D hahaha..

Tuesday, August 17, 2010


Guess what folks?

i recently................... found a cute, handsome, amazing guyyyyyyyyyyyyy..... HAHAHA well actually yess.. buttt its MANY GUYSsss AND X1000 awesome GIRLS:) hahaha :) hee hee.. recently connected with my primary school friends.. wha its been ages!!!:) how we have grown.. and how those silly 12 year olds have grown.. apparently many have seen me around but never said hi <-- i have stalkers in school WHAO.. no la kidding.. but what's better we found our pri 3 form teacher on facebook.. :) how awesome is that.. :)

chalet-ing with the gang (sarah, adeline, *part-timer* joyce teo, kes, michael, darren, kenny, and davin) and dinner-ing with johnston and sarah yesterday really is an overdose on the past:) sighh i am gonna just sit here and take in the moment..

some moments are irreplaceable

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Hmm.. its sooo hot now.. i dunno why..

anyway i bumped into 2 friends whom i talked to yesterday.. HOW COOL IS THAT? veryy huhh..:D they were out together 0.0 HAHA hee hee:D anyway.. yeahh.. cool la cool la.. i was with jo.. sooo yeahh they were shock to see us ?_?"

anyway HI people.. i don't really know what to say.. but yeah.. back to work.. loves this pace!:D i can meet people and sleep in PEACE.. OMG..:D

can the timing get any better? things really started perfect:) <-- hahaha okay chiong work now den can go out next week:D hee hee:D

*loves*

All out of love but I take it from the past
All out of words cause I'm sure it'll never last
I'm out of love but I can't forget the past
I'm out of words but I'm sure it'll never last


Tuesday, August 10, 2010


i am in love with...

2 extreme songs.. :D hahahaha.. justin bieber: baby (someone pronounced it as 'bible' instead of bieber) HAHA.. and Rihanna and Eminem: love the way you lie.

schools seems manageable for now.. :D oh wells.. sooo better blog while i can:D BOO.. anyway i wanna start GYM-ing:D hahaha i need to LOSE those UGLY FATS.. i cannot take it.. I AM NOT CRAZY I PROMISE.. anyway.. MY ARMS ARE HUGE.. and thats NOT the only problem! okayy sooo yeahh.. school is making me smarter.. i am actually interested for today's module.. :D hahaha.. check out what 'cognitive dissonance' is.. its pretty cool!:D i really thought it was uber cool.. peggy leong + points:D <-- my lecturer! finally no more ang mo accent:D OHH and i have HIVES.. from stress?! -.- i thought this is the LEAST stressful week so far.. -.- oh wells.. its sooo itchy...

WHA SUPER RANDOM THE ENTIRE PARAGRAPH!:D oh wells.. too BAD!:D

"baby baby baby noo like baby baby ohh thought you always be mine:D" be mine?

Sunday, August 08, 2010

Life goes on as usual yeah?

I'm kinda glad i was open about it with my parents:)

Now i can be in total bliss, but sorry its still a secret to the rest of the world.. I wanna wait it out first.. see how things go.. i am not sure about things and I FRANKLY told them that.. this is really a TRIAL and ERROR kinda thing.. one step at a time.. and more or less they just said they wanna be kept updated and that's it.. maybe may parents are getting cooler.. i wish i knew they were gonna be this cool when i was younger.. maybe then i wouldn't have rebelled? yeahh.. oh wells..

well bummer part of my day.. i still feel like hmm.. i dunno.. well.. no one can have best of both worlds right? i chose the less complicated route.. it makes things MUCH easier.. will i be contented with such simplicity? i dunno.. sighh.. i wanna embrace the bliss but i can hear this nagging voice inside telling me i won't be happy for long.. maybe this is another wheelock vs NIE thing.. somedays i regret choosing wheelock.. cause of its uncertainty and ambiguity.. oh wells one step at a time and gonna give it the best shot i can..:) its 6 months anyway..

and i speak in riddles.. oh wells.. :)

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie

Thursday, August 05, 2010

can somebody stop me from falling for this girl?

hahaha... okayyy HI:D

How's everything?
I think my happiness is short-lived.. SO HOW? HOW? HOW?

*NO MORE ASKING HOW...* <-- caught the HOW disease after 6 weeks... *HAHAHAHAHA* inside joke...

alrights:D WHAO my week as been uber duber suber super duper uper FUN!:D yessss.. FUN:D everyone contributed:D thanks..

Strange.. ya know i want to be normal.. but i can't? cause it was one UBER FUN WEEK:D

next week onwards i'll goo SOB in a corner with my work loads again... 0.0 help me.. okay see ya.. WHAAA I AM SOO WEIRD.. "HOW NOW BROWN COW"<-- wise words of CHAN SIU WEN:D

Tuesday, August 03, 2010

i am simply happy:D

yup thats all i have to say.

And i think i need to make my happiness known:)

the question is for how long?

*skeptical me*

oh wells.. walking into this with a bucket of braincells sooooo... i think i am prepared this time around..

So people.. don't leave me okay? i'll have more ups and downs and i hope you guys will still be there:D

cameron is cancelled.. thats a bummer.. a huge one.. but at least :) i have friends like addy, sarah, joyce, joycelyn, kester, michael, darren and davin *takes in deep breath* and who needs cameron to "gossip" hahaha orrr in nicer terms "catch up":D

i miss loads of my friends.. and this week is catch up with friends week... first friend on the list: JOEL PANG:D having breakfast now.. well he is making it..*cling cling clang clang* can hear the bowl.. shall just wait for the yumminess to come.. oh wells:D

lets see who else i'll meet:D

loves