Sunday, November 29, 2009
arghh.. i hate being reminded of my primary school days.. its disgusting.. the lian-ness.. and the regrets.. i'll never let my daughter go through what i did.. first an foremost.. i'll never let her be fat.. never.. of course in a child appropriate manner i'll get her to keep slim.. i definitely won't turn her anorexic.. yeahh BUT wha a primary school ex-classmate posted a picture.. OMG.. i never ever went for any reunions.. insecure.. i was taunted like mad by the guys for being fat when i was primary school.. scary days.. was so glad to get to secondary school.. far from all the taunting.. girls are much more polite.. i could be fat and still be myself.. ahh wells.. i'm plain fat still.. and i am still scared to see those guys.. hahaha if i eventually slim down i think won't mind going for a reunion.. hahaha more secure and humph them.. so mean to me! hahaha.. but i dun think i'll ever get asked again.. they probably think i'm fat beyond redemption..
ahh wells.. (: i had fun today shopping with sarah.. its been a while since chilling.. (: hahaha wasted alot of money and SARAH SHOPPED MORE THAN ME.. YES! she did.. HAHAHAHA.. see i'm not that bad(: lalala.. HAHAHA..
Friday, November 27, 2009
funny dinner.. dad insisted we go out to pete's place.. (he loves the free bread there.. LOVES it i tell you.. ) his excuse.. cause its thanksgiving.. -_-' i told him we don't celebrate.. he say nevermind.. this year onwards celebrate.. so during dinner..
jon: wha that day in the car for the first time por por(grandmother) suan mummy..
mum: what..?
jon: usually she says "wha i raise my daughter to be such a good person and your father blah blah blah... " but wha first time ever she didn't say that..
mum: !!
dad: ???
jon: she said " wha my daughter since young always late, i was so shock your father want to marry her.." hahahahaha..
mum: soo...
dad: yeah i know.. the carpark is my second home..
HAHAHAHA....
lost my pencil box. ):
i think i left it at ang mo kio hub):
sian.. my highlighter..
this feeling in your heart never goes away..
a break finally.. slowing things down.. its nice to enjoy doing work at a slow pace and occasional breeze(: finally the sun decides to hide behind the clouds..
hahaha.. random people always pop in my head.. but i'm a chicken.. haha i dare not talk to people.. haha.. gonna start on christmas cards early this year! i don't care.. i want to write nice things and still sleep.. anyway checking out cake recipes for the home-coming dinner thing.. hahaha.. found nice chocolate cake.. looks nice.. (: if only i were a more accomplished baker den i would bake my christmas presents.. hahaha(: too bad i'm not.. ahh wells.. found cute little standard gifts that will leave me some mula for cards.. i wish i had all the time in the world to personally shop for everyone's gift.. hahaha i would be so so happy to..
Thursday, November 26, 2009
in class now.
tired.
just handed up one assignment.
a really quiet lecturer.. everyone is talking(:
anyway i wanna go home..
i like the song, almost lover(:
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
haha.. this korean song "wedding dress" really sounds nice.. ehh and the singer taeyang cute ehh.. remind me of albert.. the multiply piercings hahaha.. and the HAIR.. very albert.. i somehow like his serious eyebrowns haha.. but sad la the MV.. his best friend always seem to like "butt" in.. even when he wanted to propose.. sad case.. the best friend beat him to it.. he was just about to propose den wha his best friend suddenly come from behind den put a ring on the girl's finger.. OMG..
ah wells.. nice la.. i dunno whether the guy is cute cute.. or cause so poor thing thats why i think he is cute.. hahaha.. he so nice still become their best man.. hahaha.. oh wells..
back to work): sighh... just a few more months.. free girl(:
Sunday, November 22, 2009
TOO much work.. WAY TOO MUCH.. SIAN.. WAY to much stress.. Let me list all the things that have been stressing me..
1. Ballet: I am still struggling to learn all the dances and i keep getting scolded for not doing the steps well enough...
2. Piano: teacher demanding practice! ALOT of it..
3. IEP advisor: PUSHED forward all the interventions
4. I have 3 assignments next week duee..
5. EMOTIONAL STRESS: little things that wha irritate me.. (wasting time.. waiting.. etc. ) too much stress eliminates my patience.
6. Random depressing thoughts while travelling.. (I AM gonna be poor when i grow up.. sighh or that i realise i am usually a push over.. ): )
7. Random scoldings from my parents for little things... (messy room.. too much clothes.. )
8. LACK of sleep.. I AM So TIRED..
9. Demanding people... (Some people just won't let me be me.. They insist i gotta be someone else..)
10. The nearing closing date for UNI application.. (I've seriously no time to do it.. )
That's it folks.. all in a nut shell..
Monday, November 16, 2009
Lies.
when as i grow older i think i understand a bit more about lies and its impacts. First its wrong. Second its just bad. Third its not nice. lies make people confuse. For example think of the person who has to hear both sides of the story? who should she believe in? does she actually wanna know who is lying? All i wanna do is forget i ever asked.. Ahh i am coward..
Anyway i wanted to say something random but i forgot what it was.. anyway Sarahhh.. i forgot to say bye to rachel.. help me say byee the next time your talk.. HAHA.. she's funny with her fruits..
My sms still don't work so.. CALL ME.. please.. if anything DON'T sms.. when i get a new phone.. i'll immediately blog about it.. den you can sms me.. till den.. don't miss out my nice cute voice.. gimme a call(: its addictive.. (okay i'm lying... )
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
life without drama.
i wish it were so.. i still feel sad.. so so sad.. what happened on saturday still quietly haunts me.. the feeling of being let go.. when it wasn't my fault.. humiliation and disgrace i should not have to face week after week.. undeserving of all the mishap.. i wish it will all disappear.. i know it was not my fault but WHY.. WHY ME? i feel angry and yet i feel trap when i should be free.. i dun wanna do anything to regret.. WHY oh why.. in the silence the words haunt me.. really.. how can i be free?
okay now to happier things(: (sound so fake but AH wells.. always look on the bright side(: ) had napfa? today((: 15:48 was MY TIMING((: Ooo LALALA!!(: i am good.. for a girl who stopped running for like forever.. and who had a timing of 17 ++ for her last timing i think i did a good job(: well but i didn't get past on tradition.. I FELL.. yes I did.. some how EVERY napfa test i take I WILL fall.. and in year three it was no exception... i scrape my knees.. additional scars to the same spot.. some how i always fall during napfa.. it was my 4th round and i fell.. but i carried on.. ah wells.. admire my battle scars if ya come around(: hahaha.. oh wells(:
~Little miss clumsy~
Saturday, November 07, 2009
okay so this just happened 2 mins ago.. no kidding.. A COCKROACH ATTACK!
I must be the bravest most nicest girl in the world. I CAUGHT IT. OMG. i've tried killing cockroaches before.. (like 1 year plus ago during my parents holiday to japan.. they left me in singapore ALONE.. and cockroaches came after me.. i blogged about it.. it was around this time of year too OMG.. cockroaches are taking revenge! anyway i didn't murder it.. my grandfather came up to catch it with his BARE hands, laugh and threw it away.. like in the rubbish..) so this time OMG this thing was on my stairs! AND I WAS LIKE WHAT THE.. called my friend ASAP.. tried bug spray on that thing but that NASTY ROACH ran towards me and i fled for my life.. den i lost it.. start kicking things and running and coming back to check if it came out.. AND OMG it actually did.. i HUNTED IT DOWN BABY.. and i CAUGHT it.. well it was recommended to me.. that i KILL it.. but when that thing RUNS i run.. so i ran down got a container and caught it.. aren't i amazing? the only heavy thing that could keep that container down in sight was a BIBLE.. now i know why its called the sword.. den i found a heavier book.. some pictures for ya viewing.. its DISGUSTING..
Friday, November 06, 2009
Hi(:
WORK WORK AND RESEARCH...):stress.. everyone is stress..
anyway nice song by Jessica Lowndes(: who? Adrianna from 90210. HAHAHA.. i think that name is so pretty.. might name my daughter that in the future.. oh and she is so so pretty.. gorgeous(: well she is a good singer.. hahaha(: her first song 'goodbye' sounds good buttt.. wha the tune sounds like a piano version of a techno song... similar to 'heaven' wait no.. but it sounds like this song.. i know last time that au kai min like.. can't remember.. old old song.. anyway.. i feel like burping but i can't.. HOW? ): its not a nice feeling.. i never thought i'll say this but I WANT TO BURP...
~The best part of me broke when we said goodbye~ so apt (: hahaha adrianna on 90210 is down the drain with sweet navid gone..
Monday, November 02, 2009
Hi..
sleepy sleepy.. didn't do much today.. read a bit.. QT a bit.. den watched tv.. den nothing lor..
now that theory exams are over i feel so light.. (: on a work diet(: hahaha.. which reminds me i need to go on a healthy diet.. i need to.. i am a pig.. eating all the japanese curry rice.. OMG.. so much rice.. and snacking on a piece of bread.. so so dumb.. now regretting..
anyway i am antisocial pig.. and i wish not to be.. really.. i want to be friendly and nice.. and nice and friendly.. but somehow i dunno how to.. so i am reading a book on how to .. HAHAHA..
anyway something funny happen today:
Dad: EH joanne guess what????
Joanne: WHAT...
Dad: I got a letter from jon's school!
Joanne: OKAY SO???
Dad: You know your brother has been offered CLB! HAHAHAHA... you know the letter started like that "I am PLEASE to inform you that your son has been offered CLB!" HAHAHAHA... they say as if its a privilege to get into CLB!
Joanne: WHA HAHAHAHA.. jon so special ahhh..
Dad: HAHAHA.. you know the letter some more say that must quickly sign up if not they cannot secure a place for him. HAHAHA.. no wonder jon just fail chinese.. the teachers all probably fail the boys cause they want them to be eligible for CLB!
Joanne: HAHAHA..
Dad: All the parents receiving the letter surely happy... 'yipee' hahaha.. my son can take CLB!
Joanne: so how jon taking CLB ah?
Dad: No. -.-
