Wednesday, October 28, 2009
hey.. (:
when i look through facebook and see pretty pictures.. i wonder why I am a bad photographer..
i think photography skills are important ehh.. it captures a moment in time and makes it last forever.. DARN.. i can't write that i know basic photography on my resume..
Oh.. uni application opens this friday.. I'm a big girl now.. going to a big school.. growing up.. how time flies.. humph.. i gotta be mature soon i guess.. humph.. some how i feel like i am not growing up ehh.. i look at everyone around me and i dun feel like i'm anything like them.. not mature enough not smart enough.. anyway.. i'll be really sad when i get a rejected application.. and i am only gonna apply to one school at a time.. UNIVERSITY is such a LONG word.. its like an OLD people word.. ARGHHH.. i am growing OLD.. OMG..
I LOVE sleeping but i think its a waste of time.. and since time is catching up with me.. I am gonna sleep 7 hours a day.. Gyming tomorrow.. see ya (:
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
evaluating and reflecting on one of my worse lesson makes me wonder whether i'll be a good teacher when i grow up. demoralizing... i wanna be a housewife... pretty please? (:
told daddy that i'll pay for my handphone bills when i start working(: must start thinking about the new order of things as i transit.. hahaha.. one day.. i'll get stuck in my tracks as i blurt out "aunty jackie" when i am 28 years old working for her.. hahaha.. that'll be weird.. so so weird.. growing up is weird.. SOOOO weird.. i am graduating soon.. ): in 16 weeks.. (: OMG.. time flies.. soon my friends will be getting married(:
happy birthday chia ling and wei han..
Sunday, October 25, 2009
have you ever had this feeling in your heart.. it is so so heavy you can feel its sinking.. it almost feels like its full of anguish.. a huge burden weighing it down.. downcast..
when i look at the past that's what i feel.. why do i not believe i have been forgiven? why am i searching for forgiveness that has already been extended to me? why do i bound myself to regrets when i've been set free in love? sometimes i think God looks as us and think we're weird..
anyway i think Ryan's sermon was really good today.. hmm made me really think about God's perspective.. my life in poly has been all about my perspective.. never thought of seeing it from God's perspective.. i think about Ryan's choice of grouping with that guy and NOT complain about it.. is amazing.. and it kinda shames me about how i've lack the compassion and the love that i should be extending to others.. darn it.. hahaha.. well for the first time I feel related to through a sermon.. so cool(: hahaha.. okie dokie.. my thoughts..
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Today:
1. Tube dropped.
2. In my reflection i notice my hair is pretty pretty long..
3. Dorothy asked me to put her name here..
4. Me and Dorothy have no common sense.. i scored 3/10. she scored 4/10. HAHAHA.. oh wells.. its some operational psychology test..
Lecturer "Most of the time common sense help you in business." No hope for us in business i guess.
back to class now.. (:
Thursday, October 15, 2009
checking out my secondary school classmates on facebook..
they are messed up.. and in secondary school they already looked messed up.. and were messed up.. hmm i wonder why i actually expected that perhaps one or two would have walked away from that kinda lifestyle??
is clubbing that fun? kissing girls? changing boyfriends? taking pictures of you and your new boyfriend in some hotel room?
you look at the girls and see beautiful skinny girls with pretty clothes.. an amazing smile.. den you look at the surroundings of the picture.. and wonder 'is she drunk?'
I'm not all holy holy.. thou shall not club or something.. but having 1000 over pictures of club scenes.. hmmm.. i wonder what is the point? it looks fun and glam.. perhaps i'll go to the club scene eventually but to get caught up in it.. is like throwing away your future.. its sad to think that i know about equal number of clubbers and non clubbers.. (all around my age).. scary... i can't imagine balancing piano, ballet, studying, church and clubbing.. if clubbing = shopping i think i'll balance it quite well.. hahaha.. ah wells.. sad realities..
Monday, October 12, 2009
HEY YA(:PSLE is over!(: hahaha so we went out(: jo & jo(:We had LUNCH(: YUMMY(: haha.. almost forgot about the movie.. okay I forgot about the movie.. Joelle didn't.. We went to cine and watched 3D movie(: Ooo... i'm getting old.. i had a headache watching the movie.. we watched the [Photo]meatball show... Den we went to [Photo]take neoprints..((: hahaha.. and we bought matching necklaces from DIVA which brought back old memories(: we did NOAH for mission trip so yeah the necklace had a rainbow.. i think the necklace is DIVINE.. hahaha cause like we both laid eyes on it at about the exact moment.. hahaha.. and thought about the rainbow in Noah.. we both kinda went "... mission trip..." hahaha.. ah wells some pictures(: (*i have no talent in photography :( *)
Sunday, October 11, 2009
1. i cannot cannot play ball games for peanuts!
2. last week of holidays. stress feeling real scared. why am i so scared of the first day of school?
3. so many birthdays coming up.
4. growing fat lazing around.
okay feeling like crap. hahaha.. really crap.. DG was very thought provoking and so was e3.. hmmm.. there is a little stirring in me.. its so quiet around me.. shhh..
when you feel empty, when you feel alone, when you feel something is missing... its all true.. cause you've locked something out.. His name starts with a J.. He is knocking.. Waiting for you..
Thursday, October 08, 2009
Hi everyone(:today went out. shopped. not alot la. bought things for others today. NOTHING for myself(: hahaha so happy. anyway yeah random la.
1. I saw Joanne Peh at Raffles city. Pretty in yellow(: but her hair not glam.
2. I saw and touched 850 dollar shoes. I have NEVER been so close to $850 anything.
3. I went to my typical dress shop called 'coast' and fell in love. WHEN i become rich one day i'll buy MANY dresses from there(: its like $500 a dress but totally worth it cause its SO SO PRETTY! so so so so so so pretty.. hahaha considering buying it and chucking aside my $30 dollar dress i am considering wearing to the Christmas dinner..
4. I saw an albino cockroach. SERIOUSLY. I AM NOT LYING.
Man.. i've been eating ALOT of nice food. ah wells. FATS.
Monday, October 05, 2009
hahaha i've strangely decided that the no. 1 criteria to get married is happiness. hahaha. he must make me happy. crazy happy. i want to be smiley jo(: duh Godly and the rest must be part of the package. hahaha..
oh wells. 14 days till school starts. cleaning the house. life is getting busy. dreading it. ballet. piano. school. strangely i'm wondering whether i feel pressured to love God. its like having an unborn child in you and you wonder whether you love it. its quite strange huh. exploring my love for God. it like silent treatment now. 2 way. must be because i initiated it. wonder who is gonna stop the cold war.
i've nothing intelligent to say. i wonder what it'll be like to have a life in the movies? as in my life is a movie. just 1 climax and 1 happy ending. some how i think my life is a movie.. just that i'm girl walking in the streets in the background.. wonder what her life is like..
