Saturday, February 28, 2009

I’m leaving you for the last time baby
You think you’re loving,
But you don’t love me
And I’ve been confused
Outta my mind lately
You think you’re loving,
But I want to be free, baby
You’ve hurt me.

Thursday, February 26, 2009

Argh.. i can still feel the insects.. GROSS.. the mosquitos! eee.. so many.. and ANTS.. my goodness.. GROSS.. But the stay was awesome.. well i went for a class chalet.. it was super fun..(: quite la.. MISSED DOROTHY!!! well.. but it was wonderful.. thought i must say we are a bit dirty la.. and the ANTS there are SIAO la.. CRAZY SIAO.. and i look like AUNTY for the stay there la.. Cooking and cleaning.. HAHAHA.. housework-ish stuff become fun when you have friends there.. Made all our own meals.. hahaha.. SO COOL.. (: Played loads of games like Wii? and Playstation 2? and watched movies... and some bonding games la.. super duper funny.. we acted out things like "barney and friends, shiting and licking ice-cream (retard phrase), making out somewhere anywhere and as cool as a cucumber" we also played this game called Polar bear? and muderer? was super fun.. oh wells.. even thought my assignment days are over for now.. my mother just "bursted" my bubble humph.. now i am typing her assignments.. and honestly... she does not have the neatest handwriting.. with such handwriting and my typing skills.. well its fustrating.. its slow and irritating.. Argh.. what a way to start the holidays.. hopefully this pays off!(: den she will let me out more during the holidays((: HEH HEH HEH.. listening to duffy now.. would like to go for her concert but a jobless person like me has no money.. plus my parents would allow me to go get one so... the first teen thing is strike off.. cause of parental objection.. how weird my life is.. sian.. i think i gotta stay home tomorrow and type away..

~missing out on the bailey's, mosquito bites for company~

Saturday, February 21, 2009

okay so here is another normal teen thing girls would do.. LOSE weight.. i mean its now or never? hahaha.. don't i sound sickening? i mean surely there is something more meaningful right? something that could change the world right? hahaha.. of course i have many other great plans for my life.. but the 9 TEEN things are stuff that i want to indulge in.. shallow things i never achieved in life.. i have bible reading plans and all that.. but those are serious.. like new year's resolutions.. yeahh.. oh wells.. so re-cap

1. Get a Teen Job
2. LOSE weigh

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Doesn't the colour look amazing? and the Egg.. i can't describe? it just looks good.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

One moment life, the next death.
One moment your life just diverted away from the wrong, the next it is making a U-Turn.
One moment its bliss, the next its hardship.
One moment your sorries are enough, the next its worthless.

Is there Hope? I think so.. But i don't feel like its so..
All i can say is sorry. Hopefully time heals all things.

~Hiding in a shell~

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Tag a comment about the previous post. Really would like to know your opinion.

Sunday, February 15, 2009

This is what i shared with myrtle today.. hmm.. but maybe i think i could have done a better job without the jokes.. hahaha.. wondering whether telling them so much about my personal mistakes is good? hahaha.. okokok my recipie when looking for a boyfriend/ girl friends.. all that i say are based on the life stories i've heard about our leaders in JYM and i must say.. i wish i could be half like them..

1. Set an age where you think you are mature enough to date or consider a boyfriend/ girlfriend.
- do not waver from this target.
-do not when any tom, dick or hairy (HAHAHA) come by think "hmmm i think i'm mature enough why not?" this is just implusive, acting on impluse on these important things not exactly clever.. trust me! I know.. hahaha... trying to be adventurous on this decision of your life is not encourage..
-well the story behind this: there was this particular jymer who had this guy interested in her and i think she liked him.. but she stood firm on her targeted age.. so they both waited.. they both remained friends till that fateful birthday when she reached her targeted age.. i would like to believe the messaged she sent across was that she was serious about relationships.. and because of the seriousness she shown i believe the guy respected her for that.. God honoured her.. hahaha... and the guy waited too(: good things are worth waiting(: hahaha..

2. Make a list of the desired traits (Character) you want your future husband/ wife to have.

- do not waver from this list. No second best(: you only want the best for yourself and so does God(: there is no excuse for bad character traits..
- The story: i had the priviledge of knowing and conversing with this jymer.. we talked about this topic on the characters we wanted to see in our future spouses.. the spouse description was detailed and precise.. you could tell this person spent alot of time seeking God on this matter.. and when it came to me.. well my list was only 5 conditions long.. of course i was embarrassed to look so flippant about the decision of my future spouse.. guess what? this person has not had a "steady" hahaha.. still looking.. and i believe when this person finds his/her other half.. he/she is gonna have one amazing, God desired husband/wife.. No compromsing.. unless God says so like for Hosea's case.. compromising is accepting second best..

* to address the bad traits part.. bad traits can always be corrected hahaha.. correct it before finalizing the commitment.. you should always be fully aware of what you're getting into.. be a FRIEND while correcting/ changing the person.. there's always time for change..

3. When you like somebody, tell someone else immediately.

- an infatuted person is hardly objective. Everything about the other person would come across perfect. you definitely a third person's view to make sure you ain't seeing things..
- there is nothing to be embarrassed about. its healthy(: if the person you tell laughs.. well you can beat the person up.. hahaha(:
- The story: this jymer liked this other jymer. and this jymer told an older jymer about it. I won't say the person this jymer chose to tell was someone close but he/she told anyway. What really impressed me was that the other jymer guided this person along and just befriended and talk to he/she about it. I believe because of the act of accounting to someone else this jymer received good counsel. Receving good counseld changes the whole outlook of things and i guess it prevented the person from diving into relationships on impluse.

I guess i just came out with the above because well.. life has been messy in this area of relationships and I definitely want to get things right! hahaha.. i want the best.. hahaha.. anyway.. i like observing people.. i like looking at people lives.. cause there are many things you can extract from it.. many good lessons and practises.. well hahaha honestly i heard most of the stories from "gossip" hahaha.. so well if you're gonna lend up hearing "gossip" perhaps you should change your attitude from all giggle giggle to some giggle giggle and an open mind.. try to find your brain in the midst of the gossip.. hahaha i know how it gets all juicy and you get consumed by "KAPO-ness" hahahaha.. alright this is the end of v.day posts..

Friday, February 13, 2009

hi(:

okay so i dunno what to say?
i'm listening to a playlist of love songs.. and think about valentines(: well that has been on my mind all week(: this valentine's is gonna be slightly different.. but after this valentine's it ends the cycle(: what do i mean? well i am a bit quirky... when an event (e.g. birthday or valentine's) come around.. i start think like one year in advance? okay day-dreaming one year in advance(: so means this year's valentines would having been brewing last year(: hahaha.. oh wells.. it was the last event hmm well..

anyway so this year valentine's is like deepavali or hari raya to me... hahaha.. something i can't celebrate for its true essence of the occasion.. so i decided to think about where i stood on this day... its a bit disorganise my thinking but yeahh i can't express myself properly sorry...

so there are 2 groups of people on this day and sub-groups:
GROUP 1: The celebrating people

- The people who have a significant other to celebrate cause well this whole occasions are for 'lovers' hahaha.. checked it up on wikipedia.. so this group of people would be all happy and in cloud 9(: lucky peeps(: can think of a few ... well at least i get to do the teasing this year! hahaha..

- The group of people who don't have a significant other to celebrate it with but insist of celebrating it with friends.. this sounds mean but its like a consolation hahaha.. but its a good one.. i use to celebrate with friends when i was in secondary school(: ahh the bags of sweets(: roses(: all sorts of flowers(: notes(: cute little gifts(: miss those days.. missing vanessa and shu rong and sarah and loads more.. in poly days.. well handing up assignments and well there ain't no more school..

Group 2: The non-celebrating people

- These people well arent't celebrating cause you can't? like a chinese trying to celebrate deepavali? how to? well.. you could go marry a indian? (adrian will faint hahaha.. ) well yeah so this bunch of people just well watch tv and carry on with life with a buzz around them..

- There are another bunch of people well choose not to celebrate this day even after many date offers.. well this people just are well i dunno.. probably anti valentines..? and well with the more date request they feel more empowered saying no.. those poor victims hahaha.. but honestly i bet there is this ego inflation everytime someone asks for a date.. well i guess waiting for the one will make the first valentine's special.. but i dunno.. its like refusing to celebrate your birthday day? hahaha... i dunno hahaha... i am nuts.. inconsistent in my writing..

oh wells.. i promised disorganise and a very very bad point of view.. with no substantial logic? hahaha.. oh wells.. sorry.. will refine one day.. hahaha.. maybe during my holidays i shall be hardcore! and write a blog as if i were writing one of my essays?! with references and all.. hahaha

good night.. 15 mins to valentines.. the phone lines are gonna be busy for a few(: Happy Valentines(: haha take a look at the past valentine's in your blog.. its hahaha.. amusing.. heart warming and i dunno haha.. oh wells.. man i have grown up! (:

Saturday, February 07, 2009

I WANT THAT PENNY! I WANT THAT PENNY NOW! I WANT IT NOW!!!!!!! AHHHH... GOING CRAZY.. WHY DON'T THEY SELL IT IN SINGAPORE... !!! AHHH!!! I WANT THAT PENNY..

Friday, February 06, 2009

Well.. i've heard of the love calculator.. but guess what i stumbled upon.. "The heart-repair calculator" hahaha.. oh well it only applys for those who have been in relationships.. hahaha.. i dunno whether it works..

The Heart-Repair Calculator.

Short relationships (3 MONTHS OR LESS)
A. count the number of weeks that you knew the person before the relationship turned romantic, and then divide this number by 2

B. count the number of weeks that you were romantically involved

C. add-up A and B

D.count the average number of days per week you saw him/her during the romance, and divide this number by 2

E. multiply C and D - that's how many weeks it will take to begin feeling

Mid-length relationships (1 YEAR OR LESS)
A. count the number of months that you were romantically involved

B. count the average number of days per week you saw him/her during the romance, and divide this number by 2

C.multiply A and B - that's how many months it will take to begin feeling

Long relationships (1 YEAR OR MORE)
A. estimate how happy you were (day to day) on a scale of 1 to 3

B. estimate how physically attractive you found your mate on a scale of 1 to 3

C.add up A and B - and then divide this number by 2-- this will give you a number in years
subtract one year from the

Can you sometimes feel resentment crawling into your heart for the people you love? it confuses me now a days.. i use to think it was fine to be 'angry' at someone, well basically i was fine being short-fused? bad tempered? 'spoiled bratish'?.. but of late being 'angry' has it reservations.. it seems weird hating yet loving a person? so weird.. but somehow it seems natural? hahaha

Monday, February 02, 2009

what a beauty(:
its amazing.. i love it.. thanks(:
pleasantly surprised.. (:
i was really at a loss for words when i saw it..
Thanks(: it was the ray of sunshine in my day(:

time to go back slaving..