Monday, March 31, 2008

why does this happen to me? why does very moment have to be so hard?
~won't go home without you

1. sorry kaixin.. i tried to reply the email but wha super sian!!!! about half way through right.. i pressed back space... and guess what? the whole web page went back to the previous page.. sian.. and the whole email was lost.. argh.............................-_-"

2. weird thought: the harder i try to be simple the more complex i make things.. and den everything messes up... argh............................-_-"

3. i realise when you rush a relationship... as in you speed up the process(best friends over night)... the drop is super super fast... its like a sugar rush... it leaves you with an exhuasted and empty feeling..

hahaha... okay tried to wallow but well until i found this great great movie that cheered me up(: hahahaha... its seriously funny!!!! "how to lose a guy in 10 days(:" kate hudson really whoo hooo.... any way bad days are bad days so no point documenting bad days(: hahahaha.. anyway good side of the day... hmmmm... learnt many learning points i may have like gave in to my anger in the end but yeah was more patient than usual so yay!!!! okay den business assignment is GONE!!! yay!!!! done!!! finished!!! submitted!!! okay.. so school is starting in like 14 days((: count down begins((: may they be the best 14 days of my life((: (seriously doubt so.. but no harm wishing) anyways........ back to the show!!! ahhhhh... i just adore the guy(: he just makes me feel a whole lot better especially since i had a rough day(: it makes me feel good to know there are good guys out there some where..... hahaha out of reach hahahaha... anyway i watched joy luck club the movie the other day as well.. cool cool movie but read the book first.. you'll understand the movie better(: it had this short story about the mother who didn't know what her worth was... it made me wonder what's mine? what is my worth???? i know the christian answer: i am worth his son's life... but that's my worth to God.. what's my worth to the rest of the world??? should it even matter??? i dunno.... oh wells... any way guess what?? sarah brightman has UGLY teeth seriously... UGLY.. she shouldn't smile... luckily she looks super pretty not smiling(:

What you never know won't hurt you What you never know won't lie What you never know won't desert you What you never know won't say goodbye What you never know won't make you cry What you never know unless you try... i tried..

Friday, March 28, 2008

okay my life is NOT eventful.... i repeat NOT eventful... first i spent the day at home finished watching bits and pieces of the Huan Zhu ge ge its really really funny some parts(: anyway had music prac... -_-" so i wait the rain out as much as i can until i needed to leave the house, well looking outside it didn't look like the rain was gonna go away... -_-" i washed my HAIR!!!!!! NOOOOOOOO.... only solution carry my big care bear UMBRELLA(: which i did.. so i SLOGGED it out in the rain.. my slipper kept falling off... totally wrong slipper to wear... -_-" finally SHELTER!!!!! the train station(: so i waited for my train and got on, and exactly one stop(chinese garden) i looked out the window it STOPPED raining!!!!!!-_-" sian... so i was late for music prac and still got wet and i walked around carrying a care bear umbrella which poked me(cause SOMEONE was busy molesting it while doing the UMBRELLA DANCE)-_-" so yeah that's my day.. SIAN DIAO...(pretend i am saying it the way joel says it...)(:

Thursday, March 27, 2008

hahaha.. after talking to this guy who is 1 year older than me i realise one thing.. guys are still so childish(: in a cute way.. but well the older they get the stiffer they are more serious less playful.. so i guess old guys are serious and dependable were as young guys are fun and fickle hahaha.. i wonder if there is a guy out there that has the best of both worlds(:...



Anyway i bet many people have heard about the upcoming wedding.. on my goodness.. i want to say "hey i'm getting married too" hahaha.. no i am not.. ah ya... but i want to have my own wedding la... it has always been my no. 1 dream!!!! i want to get engage before my 24th birthday and get married after i turned 24.. maybe at least 6 months engagement to plan for my perfect wedding(: but you know what? if the guy i marry really knows me for me.. and if he does the wedding and if its just like my dream wedding.. man i'll definately know he is the one for me.. but well i guess doing it together would be best(: hahaha.. not many peple are lucky to find a partner let alone the perfect one.. but God makes all things beautiful in his time(:



well the business course is over yippee but not the assignment but well i am glad i don't have to wake up so early(: anyways happy sailing adrian(: i think i'll eat macs or something.. and describe it to you(: anyway i watching huan zhu ge ge its really funny(: hahahaha.. old old show..



you confuse me.. one moment is this the next is that.. i feel like i can't trust you with myself.. can i?

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

It's not so easy loving me
It gets so complicated
All the things you gotta be
Everything's changing
But you're the truth
I'm amazed by all your patience
Everything I put you through

And when I'm about to fall
Somehow you're always waiting with
Your open arms to catch me
You're gonna save me from myself
From myself, yes
You're gonna save me from myself

My love is tainted by your touch
Well some guys have shown me aces
But you've got that royal flush
I know it's crazy everyday
Well tomorrow may be shaky
But you never turn away

Don't ask me why I'm crying'
Cause when I start to crumble
You know how to keep me smiling
You always save me from myself
From myself, myself
You're gonna save me from myself

I know it's hard, it's hard
But you've broken all my walls
You've been my strength, so strong
And don't ask me why I love you

It's obvious your tenderness
Is what I need to make me
A better woman to myself
To myself, myself
You're gonna save me from myself






i'm not a better women...

Sunday, March 23, 2008

The most wonderful easter ever(: never expected.. was actually expecting a normal so so one(:

Myrtle(: your make my job very very rewarding(: ahhhh... your may not respond all the time but your actually listen to me(: most people don't by the way(: thank you peeps(:

Dorothy(: wha.. wha.. thank you for coming(: hope you feel more in love with jesus(: and hopefully fang hou is okay... hahahaha hope that both of you can come for another event in june(revelations)(:

Albert((: [double] wha i am so proud that you came and actually made a stand(: good for you(: maybe i should have asked years ago la hahahaha..

Thursday, March 20, 2008

Monday, March 17, 2008

wha today went on road trip with Jo.. scary la.. hahaha!!!! break twice la!!! my laptop at the back dropped to the floor twice la.. hahaha.. anyway he missed 3 turns, 1 wrong turn, 2 sudden breaks and he horned once(someone became so HAPPY that he could scold the driver)... his driving made my ride super super exciting hahaha.. spent most of the day in his car.. hahaha.. but it was super fun going to TP.. never been there and i bought ice cream from a vending machine!!!! so cool!!! the campus is cool and beautiful.. we didn't make it in time for the last stop(some NS place in depot road)... anyway before that we were at church setting up video for the station(: hahaha.. encounter many problems with the internet down in church so had to go jo's house to get the internet and download some software la.. den went in the house den john pop his head out of the bedroom door and said hi.. so i walk walk walk den the closer i got i only saw his head so i was like panick "john are you decent?!" hahaha... he was by the way hahaha.. any way today pretty exciting.. super unexpected.. hahaha.. Good day(:

Friday, March 14, 2008

OH man.. camp was FUN in a weird way(: i gotta go away from everything but oh wells new troubles came.. okay let me start with how the camp went...

Well i went there preparing for the worse (sleeping in a tent plus sleeping bag with NO proper bath, having to survive with powder bath and detol wipes) we went there and guess what? it was CANCELLED!!! wha i was so happy.. it meant that we could have proper bath with hot water (but the toilet is very very small) we only needed to climb up some thing to get to a 10 stories waterfall and we were promised we would get back to the resort.. so we trek trek trek up that hill or whatever.. okay so yeah the details of the hike go and read from another blog cause yeah nothing exciting happen to me or the people near me.. anyway we saw the waterfall and made our way back wha was super super tired by den.. but we all carried on.. after about 2 hours it was dark (7pm-ish) so we took out all the torch lights the group had.. and trek trek trek.. we had to take another route to avoid the river because the currents were too strong and the water levels were too high for us to cross well cause it was raining.. horrible right? so it rained rained rained! well then te BAD news came.. time for us to face facts: we had to spend the night where ever we are at. BAM i almost thought i died.. now we had to spend the night with NO POWDER BATH, DETOL WIPES, SLEPPING BAG AND TO TOP IT ALL NO TENT!!!!!!!!! ahhhhhhhhh... and it was raining... i was super super sian.. thank God for uncle David who created some natural shelter out of trees..(jon is asking for KFC now.. *miss that piggy boy) cool guy.. anyway 3 of these shelters were created in my tree shelter there was david(lim), claudia, the cute twins Grace and Gayle(GG), sarah, kester, yufen, joy, ka onn, joel, jeremy and john pang.. by the way everyone who had to pee, peed in the bush la.. i didn't dare.. hahaha.. anyway we spent the night talking about all sorts of nonsense.. David's high morale kept us sane for the first half of the night.. second half we tried to sleep but wha so much wet mud because of the rain couldn't sleep.. claud and my legs itched la.. i could take it anymore so i scratched my legs.. and guess what my skin peeled la!!!!! gross it looked so so horrible!!!! ahhhhh.. like crocodile.. peeling skin and mud under my ass plus wet clothing is the worse combination ever.. couldn't take it anymore.. i excepted David's shiok spot after Claud gave it up to lie on the mud but i landed up sleeping on her tummy come rib cage.. hahaha.. sorry claud.. you are the nicest(: hahaha.. well later we all took a walk down about 4am in the morning.. super super cold all of us were shivering.. hahaha.. we all congregated some where and me and yufen shared a plastic bag which i found in my bag.. and sat on it and slept.. hahaha.. about 2 hours.. before the sun rose and hallelujah! we could go back to the resort!!!!!! wha... that was the most most most grateful moment in my life.. and we made our way back...

some people are worth commenting about.. to all the P6s ya'll deserve a medal each(: your were so brave(: to aik hong.. my number 1 favourite leader.. you sacrificed your comfort for others you practise what Jesus taught and gave your coat(wind breaker) away even though you only had 1 and technically Jesus said to give up your extra coat(: it was my blessing to have the privilege to work with you(: so glad we're in the same fraction so my chances of working with you again are high YAY!(: to all fellow campers.. we had the experience of our lives and even though its nothing compared to like the experience of winning Singapore Idol we had a blast and i believe God was with us all the way(: i cannot imagine a more bonded camp than this(: i love ya'll(: the boys became man and the girls became powerful ladies whoo hoo...(:

anyway the bed is calling(: Zzz..Zzz.. hahaha.. and i will blog more about the camp tomorrow(: hahaha.. and i have some really cute pictures(: hahaha(: *DAVID send them to me please(:*

Monday, March 10, 2008

God speaks(: Yesterday i was groaning about how tired i am and how i rely on myself and guess who came reminding me to rely on Him? He himself of course(: "He alone can equip us for all of the uncertainties of life, for He alone is our strength.We always have enough when God is our supply." Amen(:

Any how today Myrtle had a great time(: really encouraged to see all of your bond!!!! To God be the glory. Dear members maybe your didn't see Him at work but He was there. Each time i exclaim its my unlucky day, each time he came to our group's rescue, steamboat was cancelled last minute but God provided us with a BBQ(equipment and all at no inconvenience) and with sufficient supply for the other groups as well..just the right amount i would say because nothing was wasted.. every time we had to scrap our ideas new ones came in and Aunty Bernice inspired our finale product when we were desperate and it looks special(: Its no coincidence that we had just the right amount of man power we were neither under staff nor over staff.. there are many more instances i could give thanks for but one last one, my slipper broke and i had to go barefoot for a few hours so it wasn't cool.. but guess what? i got new slippers.. sarah bought them.. erm.. not very pretty ones but hey at least i didn't have to go barefoot.. hahaha(: and i don't think i had to inconvenience her to buy them they were bought on the way.. hahaha.. wonderful memories(: okay one thing though... NO CAMERA... sob sob.. but never mind i can rely on my brain(: hahaha...

wonder what it is like to be 100% happy? oh and i left out something(: hahaha for the carnival post.. crystal, sarah and i saw a cute guy!!!!sarah only saw his side profile too bad.. so so cute.. dark tall and handsome(: ahhhhhhhh.... and i know him!!!!!! *faints* he BBQ food for us and delivered it to the general office were me and crystal were at.. wha.. so... super handsome(:

Sunday, March 09, 2008

super pek chek today is a bad day.. lets start from yesterday.. 7.30am-10.30pm(there is no typo error) i was at the PHS carnival.. what i did there..
1. Get the key to the room
2. Try to find the room (climb up 4 floors for nothing cause i took the wrong stairs)
3. settle the volunteers and performaners down
4. climb up and down 4 floors a few times to photocopy stuff for them
5. Plan with aunty jenny how to bring one room flat people to the fun fair
6. execute the plan.. call so many people to come help(: *met some really nice PHS students, 3 girls, who helped me and one guy name ??? sorry really tired now*
7. Approve changes to the parade square performance
8. SPY on Guest Of Honour so that i can give the cue to the band to play when he leaves
9. Deliver food to some people who sponsored stuff
10. Sell cakes with crystal(as and when i was not running around)
11. played with tammy for half and hour.. (queued for food la...)
12. did everything my mother told me to do (ALOT i tell you... set up health and legal clinic)
13. made new friend with the announcement guy(that is among the first thing you do so that you can get him to announce everything for you.. for me i spend alot of time sending anouncements to him)* he is a alumni of PHS and he is from Ngee Ann flim and media studies..(: never caught his name though but we share the same block in school how cool(:.. maybe we'll see each other in the cramp lift when school re-opens..
14. call random people and ask for help.. (alot of teahcers who i don't know)
15. spend my money at the closed earring making stall..
16. watch crystal and sarah count coupons.. too tired aready brain fried..
17. solve our disappeared coupons issue
18. go home

super tired la.. went home slept den wha got woken up by dad at 7.30 am to go to E1 service la.. wha i was so stoned la.. i did not call johnston to tell him cannot fetch him.. sorry i know you are angry.. den i spilled coffee creamer all over the floor.. alot on the floor la.. i'm super tired.. den went for DG which was good la.. E3 sermon not bad la.. den went for lunch talk rubbish until we lend up fighting den i did rash stupid things and some more go and cry.. den go back for music prac den after music prac go cry some more with sarah.. wha so stupid la.. go for prayer confess my sin den talk with group (1 way communication la....) den ah ya.. worship.. den sermon.. and group time which i found very very tiring no one freely response..

heard of this phrase "give until sick and tired of giving" i realise some thing.. i have not been doing my QT in the midst of all this work for the fun fair(wed to sat.).. i've been giving of my own strength.. and i think that's why i am burnt out.. i definately need sleep but i need to start giving out of God's bank account and stop giving out of mine.. of course out of love and remember i can only give when i have top up from God.. super duper tired which resulted in a bad day.. lesson learnt.. (: gonna rest..

Tuesday, March 04, 2008