Friday, November 30, 2007

for once i know how it feels like to only have $1 in your wallet.. First i must thank God for an ATM card.. i would be in a panic if i didn't.. second for not making hungry and providing me average tasting Yam thingy when i went home.. okay you wanna kmow what's worse??? i used that one dollar to use the pay phone cause well i FORGOT to bring my phone today.. so yeah and guess what? NO REFUND! know what went wrong after that my biggest worry came true.. i really had no money in my ez-link card la.. some more it was -0.74cents la..

sigh i was really depressed la no money.. actually i do have money but i can't use it cause i need to pay for some stuff on monday.. my parents aren't in singapore by the way so i can't stretch out my hand for money when i wanna.. and i need to like support myself for a few more days.. i need to buy contact lens fluid and other stuff la.. so i guess i am really poor.. and i lugi $5 cause of my own big mouth if not well i would have money for today's dinner.. but well if i spend my money wisely for the nect few days i'll survive:) haha.. guess why i am so so broke? i spent more than half my money on shopping.. i had $150 for 2 weeks.. i spent $80 on shopping.. and i actually planned to spend more till i realise i was running out of money la.. i actually planned to buy 2 new tops today some more la.. sigh.. no more shopping.. unless God makes me not hungry for a week la.. and i'm seriously eating into my savings la.. dead duck!!! ahhhh... first time ever having to worry how much i spend.. oh wells.. i did waste quite alot like i would be $1.80 richer if i didn't buy bubble tea which i landed up throwing half away.. i could have saved $1 on chips which i also couldn't eat much of and landed up asking weihan to finish it..i spent another $1 buying ice lemon tea which i misplaced somewhere after drinking slightly less than half.. i could have shut my mouth last night and i den i would have saved $5.. with $8.80 i could eat and have bought a standard ticket home la.. darn too late for fretting.. tomorrow must watch how i spend my money again.. better not go to esso..later i buy nonsense again.. oh and some of you might wonder why won't i just borrow? cause well i am not that sort.. first if i ever borrow money is like because i left my wallet in class and i am at the canteen supposedly to buy food so i'll probably borrow money and pay back once i am in class.. and i'll only borrow from close friends la.. i wouldn't ask normal friends or classmates to help me pay first, i'll probably walk back to get my wallet if i'm close friendless.. i would have borrowed money today but well.. lets just say things didn't go well with some people and i was totally absorbed by being poor that i forgot i could have asked jo la.. oh wells so eventful today.. i'll stop spending so wastefully.. lesson learnt..

Thursday, November 29, 2007

at a sudden loss of words to type out.. i have lots going through my mind but yeah its a matter of PRINCIPLE why i don't think i'll type it out...
i like the song called lost by michael buble.. its so assurring but right now i feel totally opposite..
However this song is the kinda song i would sit back and daydream a new scenario...

You're a falling star
You're the getaway car
You're the line in the sand
When I go too far
You're the swimming pool
On an august day
And you're the perfect thing to say
And you play it coy, but it's kinda cute
when you smile at me you know exactly what you do
Baby don't pretend that you don't know it's true
Cause you can see it when I look at you
And in this crazy life
And through these crazy times
It's you It's you
You make me sing
Your every line
Your every word
You're everything
You're a carousel
You're a wishing well
And you light me up
When you ring my bell
You're a mystery
You're from outer space
You're every minute of my every day
And I can't believe O'that I'm your man
And I get to kiss you baby just because I can
Whatever comes our way
We'll see it through
And you know that's what our love can do
And in this crazy life
And through these crazy times

Sunday, November 25, 2007


i am growing very very FAT.. i dunno why i can't stop eating la.. the moment food is in sight i start eating la.. all the unhealthy food some more.. sigh.. i really really dun wanna stuff my face with food anymore.. sigh..
PS the butter is me..

Wednesday, November 21, 2007


i'm gonna gonna give this a shot:) my best shot:) i will be a swan:)

Monday, November 19, 2007


ahh ya.. i feel as thought whatever i said yesterday is so like my blog entries.. haha.. yeah.. so so dunno la.. today i went to watch BRATZ really nice nice show.. but i find so cheetah girlish.. cheetah girls 2.. super similar la.. oh wells.. any how..tomorrow is an exciting day i think.. i am still wondering whether i should plan.. my plans FAILED last year so yeah.. oh wells.. haha.. we did a little shopping.. i bought this really cool earrings for $2.. like $2.. and they DON'T look $2... ahhh.. oh wells.. that's why i am so happy.. but i like spent all my pocket money already.. haha on useless stuff like sweets la.. and yeah a secret haha.. sigh i was so so tempted to but shoes and this really really really nice dress!!!! but i had no more money la.. well i'll be money concious for the rest of the week.. well after tomorrow.. haha.. :)

Saturday, November 17, 2007


One of my biggest goals in life is to go for a prom like thing with a date preferably male:) well i it would be nice for a change and have a male date.. the date would be perfect just like in the story books..he'll compliment me on how beautiful i look.. he'll extend an invitation to dance with me.. we'll dance for a while.. he'll get me a drink.. go on this nice quite walk.. talk a lot about ourselves..dance some more.. and finally it all ends with a magical good night kiss.. i can't imagine kissing a girl on the cheek or having our arms around each other while dancing? haha.. sigh but i doubt i'll ever reach this goal.. in pri.6 i wanted to go to a mixed gender school because of that.. and sec. 4 i wanted to go to JC for that.. sigh.. and sadly i went into a female dominated course in poly.. i know only one guy..and he'll NEVER take me as a date even if i begged him haha.. cause we're too pally.. as in too friendly.. totally no interest in each other.. i guess i'll be having prom with girls again which is good i guess.. one last time before they disappear.. haha.. sigh.. do they have prom in UNI? is it by course too??? do people actually go? do they have dates? sigh.. i really wish one day just one day i'll finally get to go for this.. if not.. well one of my friends please get married fast.. den maybe i'll get to have a date haha... hee hee maybe a best man.. wha i think i sound so despo.. but its true that my chances of my goal happening is getting silmer and silmer as i get older.. sighh... bleah..

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

today wasn't a good day.. i lashed out for a split second.. probably more than that but it was real quick.. i just snapped.. i felt so irritated with everything and how i felt.. for that moment i felt as though self control and patience just disappeared from me.. after that i was just fustrated and stoned at the same time.. you know what the irony was? i was actually laughing and playing before that.. maybe i am crazy.. but yeahh.. i am kinda too stubborn to admit anything.. i guess it can't be my fault? i dunno la.. but i don't care.. i just sat there watching trains go by... "Little Miss Stubborn"
i am a forgetful girl.. i tend to forget things real easily unless it makes a huge impact on me.. but even that would probably forgotten as time passes.. the only way i remember things is if i write them down.. or i'm reminded at most the day before and more days in advance i'll forget.. haha.. or you can keep reminding once a day till the event comes.. i try to remind myself but i still tend to forget.. haha.. oh wells.. i guess i can be "Little Miss Forgetful" haha.. well its suppose to be Mr. ..

Sigh.. assignments are coming in.. getting a bit stressed because i can't seem to find references.. on top of that well.. there is sunday's worship which i kinda uncertain of.. i feel kinda lazy cause i have yet to source information for JYM camp stuff.. and sigh relationships are just getting to me.. and i know that i am suppose to be happy just being alive but sometimes its so so hard.. feel so weighed down.. the ambiguity of my friends coming to jym camp.. i dunno la.. kinda discourage if they all don't go.. sigh.. and my expectations aren't high.. i'm only expecting them to come for the first day.. sigh sigh.. the worse thing of all.. i am getting FAT.. i feel like all i do is eat eat eat i don't remember ever stuffing my face so much with food without burning it off until this year.. "Little Miss Stressed out"

Thursday, November 08, 2007

The book of love is long and boring

No one can lift the damn thing

It's full of charts and facts and figures and instructions for dancing

But I

I love it when you read to me

And youYou can read me anything

The book of love has music in it

In fact that's where music comes from

Some of it is just transcendental

Some of it is just really dumb

But I

I love it when you sing to me

And you

You can sing me anything

The book of love is long and boring

And written very long ago

It's full of flowers and heart-shaped boxes

And things we're all too young to know

But I

I love it when you give me things

And you

You ought to give me wedding rings

And I

I love it when you give me things

And youYou ought to give me wedding rings

And I

I love it when you give me things

And you

You ought to give me wedding rings


Monday, November 05, 2007

well.. i learn to let go.. i may wish like mad that everything is about me:) that i was part of your every thought but hey that's so.. one way cause you aren't my everything.. i once wished wished wished but yeah my wish came true.. maybe i should have made a better wish..

Let your wish become a prayer
Put your dearest wish
in God's hands today
and discuss it with Him
as you faithfully pray.

And you can be sure
your wish will come true
if God feels your wish
will be good for you...

Friday, November 02, 2007

who do you share your random happy moments with? yourself? a friend? someone you like? your parents? random strangers? siblings?

i tend to share with someone i like.. but what happens if i dun have anyone i like den how? no strings attached.. no reason to listen or bother with me den how? no close close friend.. i do la.. but some things like random stuff like i sewed something for the camp stuff won't like be interesting since she's non-christian.. jo will be like sian-diao.. so guess what i do..i tell the random happy moment to people who talk to me on msn.. i guess it will be too much of me to call someone to share a happy moment.. i dunno i guess no one understands.. i dunno why but i always have so many random exciting happy moments la.. den i need to share with some one la.. haha.. i'm so so weird.. haha.. my life seems fine for the moment but some gut feeling in me says its gonna be messed up real soon..

oh wells.. o levels will be soon over den mel will come back to church hopefully.. pretty please?

Thursday, November 01, 2007

little things makes me happy..

little cute cute boy stretch out his hand at me and said: hi i am boy boy i am 4 years old..

haha so cute..