Monday, October 29, 2007

hey today i crashed kaimin's and ivan's lecture.. history lecture.. super super fun.. she tells lots of stories.. today's lesson was on US history.. it was broken into 3 distinct sections: racial stuff, war and women rights:).. most of the emphasis was on racial discrimination.. pretty cool.. we arrived late so i guess we missed the suffering part of the racial discrimination.. but she brought up really really interesting points.. like JFK.. yeah i always thought of him as a very erm powerful man.. cause well everyone knew his name.. but it turn out.. he didn't do much before he got shot.. and actually LBJ.. the guy that took over him did alot of changes in the law for the african- americans in the memory of JFK that's why he is so popular la.. oh and martin luther king was another cool man.. haha.. poor guy died.. i somehow always thought of him as a singer? haha.. i dunno?? was he? the teacher said he was a rev. clergyman.. yeah.. so he was educated.. cool huh.. oh wells.. many lessons but yeah i probably forget.. cause yeah i am forgetful... i hope i am not breaking the law by writing this entry but i guess its okay right?? cause well the teacher said so:)

Sunday, October 28, 2007

Is it possible Mr. Loveable is already in my life? right in front of the mirror... maybe you're in disguise..Who doesn't long for someone to hold, who knows how to love you without being told... somebody tell me why I'm on my own... if there's a soulmate for everyone...

Here we are again, circles never end..how do I find the perfect fit?there's enough for everyone but I'm still waiting in line...Most relationships seem so transitory.. They're all good but not the permanent one..

Thursday, October 25, 2007

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

hey this is entry is for my friends:)...
hey peeps.. i'm sorry for being a terrible friend.. and i totally don't deserve how your have been there for me.. walking home today, i began to reflect on all the stuff you've blessed me with.. and i was really touched.. i know i have been preetty emo and all with change happening.. all the late night calls.. and the sobbing haha.. some of ya'll didn't pick up but its okay:) haha.. still shared with you the next day without the emotions.. haha.. your have been supporting me in the many decisions i have been making P.S except piano lessons!!! humph.. but yeah thanks so so much.. thanks for all the mega support.. the talking, the fun.. i actually feel better.. last night finalised a few things but still i'm not ready to clear my room yet.. but soon yeah.. all these changes made me a meaner person so yeah sorry if i acted out.. yeah.. but thanks for wanting me:) and i want to be there for all of you.. cause i love you!!! i don't promise to snap out of it but i promise to try:) well.. changed a few aims in life.. the perfect man will come in time.. but the bestest friends will be there for life.. so peeps i want to earn it:) i am gonna be friend orientated!!!! hahaha.. oh happy day:)

Monday, October 22, 2007

When we first met I never felt something so strong
You were like my lover and my best friend
All wrapped in one with a ribbon on it
And all of a sudden you went and left
I didn't know how to follow
It's like a shock that spun me around
And now my heart's dead
I feel so empty and hollow

Damn, ain't it crazy when you're loveswept
You'd do anything for the one you love
Cause anytime that you needed me I'd be there
It's like you were my favorite drug
The only problem is that you was using me
In a different way than I was using you
But now that I know it's not meant to be
I gotta go, I gotta wean myself off of you

And I'll never give myself to another the way I gave it to you
You don't even recognize the ways you hurt me, do you?
It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back
And you're the one to blame
'Cause now I feel like....

Next time you wanna go on and leave
I should just let you go on and do it
'Cause now I'm using like I believe

It's like I checked into rehab
And baby, you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

wha today i had some what a fun time..have you read all those stories about the guy trying to do something sweet like book the entire resturant or a yatch just for the 2 of them.. well kinda had that today i guess.. though not intentional but still cool:).. had a fun time today from my point of view.. tomorrow is a new day with new classes.. still pretty free.. what scares me is the lay out of assignments and the due dates.. i totally love my out fit today.. i think i'll wear something nice tomorrow since i have a 4 hour break.. so i think we would go like have fun??? please??? no need to be so involve with CCAs??? please.....

well because i've been so free.. i've been refreshing bitter thoughts.. and i get really angry with them.. yeah.. we all make mistakes but i guess its hard to let go sometimes.. and its harder when the other party feels that they have done no wrong.. and you get hurt in the whole process.. so it makes it so so hard to let go..

oh and today i was at the skating ring and all.. and there were like tonnes of people.. scary man.. so many people skating and falling.. reckless skaters should be banned from the ring.. oh and it was seriously packed.. like really.. super scary.. so we didn't skate in the end.. haha.. too scary.. i don't wanna loose my fingers cause some crazy person didn't open his/her eyes and skate over my fingers.. well.. i plan to go another time when there are fewer people..:)

to despick and caleb.. JIA YOU:)

Friday, October 12, 2007

wouldn't it be nice if i had many special dates.. haha.. hmmm.. take a bus to sentosa in the morning.. spend the day at the beach reading and talking.. some times words just spoil everything.. with such beautiful scenery i guess words may just spoil the day.. the closeness and presence of each other would be just right.. find a nice shaddy secluded spot facing the ocean would be fantastic romantic spot.. playing with the sand.. leaving your footprints and names behind.. burry your tickets in a spot and make a proimse to come back in 1 year.. have a simple lunch at the beach.. after lunch explore the different entertainment sites like the merlion.. end of the date in the eveing as the sun sets taking a cable care ride back to harbor front..

HAPPY BITHDAY JO...

Okay sarah if you're reading this let's promise we'll all go to wild wild wet.. the three of us.. ahem which includes piggy johnston.. haha.. his idea kinda.. we're discussing it now.. does december cound good? haha.. the piggy has only written like 5 lines of his summary..

AND YOU! see.. i am not too proud!!! i just asked sarah out!!! seee... WHATEVER!!!! humph.

Thursday, October 11, 2007

hmmm wanna hear about my day dreams? haha maybe i'll stop telling so much of my boring life and thoughts and tell ya'll more about my day dreams..

today i imagine i could be a model in a korean drama.. i would of course meet 2 guys.. one that's really such a jerk with a soft spot.. and a totally nice guy!!! i'm always so sad at the end cause i'll be with the jerk who becomes nice for like the last episode.. anyhow i dreamt that i was actually pretty haha.. and how the model totally didn't look like me cause she was so pretty.. gorgeous babe.. haha.. perfect legs and all natural:) haha.. any how of course both guys are rich and smart.. of course i have more in common with the nice guy cause he is a fellow model as well.. the jerk is well is one of my sponser's son.. so yeah i entertain that jerk.. like typical korean dramas there is a second girl.. fellow model rival.. who is the rick jerk's crush.. but i guess that rich jerk is like forced to like be with me and all cause yeah.. so argh.. we have many verbal battles.. nice guy is alwas standing up for me.. and aw.. he is so sweet.. the crazy rival is super whatever as she messes things up for me.. but in the end like all good korean dramas.. the jerk finally realises he likes me and i like him.. i break the nice guy's heart and sigh.. the rival girl flies abroad cause her career is totally ruined.. i'm super happy.. and life is good..

well i guess most of your think i'm dumb..but hey everyone dreams:) i just dream the extremely impossible dreams:)

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Tried to take a picture
Of love
Didn't think I'd miss him
That much
I wanna fill this new frame
But it's Empty

Tried to write a letter
In ink
It's been getting better
I think
I've got a peice of paper
But it's Empty

It's Empty
Maybe we're trying
Trying to hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're Empty

wha i watched 200 pound beauty on you tube... its super nice.. if i could upload it here i would.. its so nice.. i mean wha.. its seriously nice.. haha.. its touching i guess.. wha if i could undergo plastic surgery to be so flawlessly pretty that would be nice.. haha no la.. but wha so pretty.. haha why can't i be born pretty.. ah ya i dun wanna eat anymore.. haha.. well specifically no more fatty food for me.. well i need to eat healthy for pretty skin.. haha.. ahh... i wanna be pretty!!! wha so irritating.. she is so pretty la.. kim ah joong.. wha and she sings so well.. ahhhh.. jealous! hahaha..i think i am gonna stop eating!!!! ahhh.. fat thighs!!! ahhh.. my face so fat la.. okay i think ya'll are irritated with me and my fat ranting!!! ahhhh.. anyway i think the guy is so not cute.. but well i guess if you're ugly you would think everyone is nice.. man maybe i am ugly.. haha :) i always say everyone is like above average haha.. anyway check out this song.. its called ave maria.. korean pop style:)http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K_xvt8VnUYQ haha.. the actress sang it.. so pretty and talented!!! ahhh.. haha nevermind..

Tuesday, October 09, 2007

Happy birthday vanessa!!!sadly i dun have a picture of just you and me cause well shurong's cam broke down during sarah's birtdhay:) haha well girl!! i am so so happy for you!! so so glad you're a christian.. haha.. and well haha you'll definately be invited to my wedding if i ever have one! haha.. well had lots of fun today watching that movie.. haha hope you enjoyed yourself.. hope you name the cuet bear you bought:) love ya.

Friday, October 05, 2007

When you wish upon a star
Makes no difference who you are
Anything your heart desires
Will come to you
It will come to you

If your heart is in your dream
No request is too extreme
When you wish upon a star
As dreamers do

Oh fate is kind
She brings to those to love
The sweet fulfillment of
Their secret longing

Like a bolt out of the blue
Fate steps in and sees you through
When you wish upon a star
Your dream comes true

Wednesday, October 03, 2007

is it time to reshuffle my pirorities? or should i wait out just a little longer.. anger fills my thoughts some times.. tyring to remember not to at the same time.. taking my mind off you.. and thinking of other things.. sadly God, i can't seem to keep my mind on you.. i wish i could.. it says:"Focusing on Christ puts everything in perspective." and " He will help us to see everything clearly again." Do your QT if you've yet to.. turning in for the night.. a pretty stoned day..




Turn your eyes upon Jesus,
Look full in His wonderful face;
And the things of earth will grow strangely dim
In the light of His glory and grace.
—Lemmel

Monday, October 01, 2007