Monday, August 27, 2007

When you wish upon a star
Makes no difference who you are
Anything your heart desires
Will come to you

If your heart is in your dream
No request is too extreme
When you wish upon a star
As dreamers do

Fate is kind
She brings to those who love
The sweet fulfillment of
Their secret longing

Like a bolt out of the blue
Fate steps in and sees you through
When you wish upon a star
Your dreams come true

Hope for all.. haha.. :) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B-GtMDLlGRI check this out.. its sweet..

relationship = toy

ah whatever..if you dun care i dun either..

all i can think of now is the MRT boy..

time to be 6862, 843 6659 929 86 36 48 47 86 347277327..

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

hello again people.. yesterday joyce and i made spags.. super nice :) *tip fry the sauce and spag together, don't heat up the sause seperately cause its not as nice!*

Today my "nice nice" grandfather made mango pudding!!! super super yum.. it was yumilicious! it would have been better with fresh mangos in it! but is was still nice.. haha maybe one day i'll make it for my cell:) hope your don't die.. haha.. anyway you know my grandfather is really nice.. on friday and monday when i had my exams he was afraid i would get caught in the rain on the way to school so he drove me everyday! so sweet huh.. so nce.. haha.. i call him grumpy old man but times like this makes me all warm.. haha i am his sampler :) i steal his food haha.. oh and my grand daddy cooks dinner most of the time.. hmmm i should help him huh since my exams are over.. but my chinese drama... !!! But no good deed goes unrewarded *maybe i'll be more of a handicap in the kitchen than a help haha*

Any how i've been partying the end of exams ALONE! haha.. with neopets my cutie pies they are so cute one is a jub jub (name:jubby) and the other is some thing.. haha but cute! oh and watching TV... a cool doctor drama show House M.D. its cool.. haha.. they are so smart.. they totally make such a differece! i wish i could too.. haha.. well to all the poor people out there i'll stop ranting since some people say i torture poor innocent people with my rantings sighz oh wells.. haha life goes on:)

Monday, August 20, 2007

Sunday, August 19, 2007

May the Lord make my love increase and overflow for you and for everyone else, just as God does for me.
1 Thessalonians 3:12 in my pray

Saturday, August 11, 2007

is this how things work? do people just keep all the anger inside.. until they cannot take it anymore? they lash out? den what? back to square one? you control all the anger all over again? the whole cycle starts again? over and over? until you realise its practically a cycle? a predictable one? den you give up?

sigh what can i say? its true.. trust me.. no idea how to work around the cycle.. i guess we are all stuck in the cycle till we give up.. well.. sigh.. life goes on and on..

Tuesday, August 07, 2007

When your heart breaks.. you come out stronger.. Today i visited many places.. stood on the outside looking in.. Thinking that could be me.. Watching Dinosaurs at the Omni Theater, Ice skating, playing at snow city, watching a movie, eating at Pizza Hut, basically fulfilling all the scret desires of my heart.. i watched from the outside, sat in the cold envying the people that skated by.. sitting with the rest of the lonely people, mainly old men.. got lost a bit but i found my way home eventually.. had rashes on my arms for some werid reason... maybe it was too cold.. i thought someone or anyone would save me from my misery, past and present hopefuls didn't save me.. i try to think God would, something would just appear.. nothing did.. this song really connects...

Now I will tell you what I've done for you -50 thousand tears I've cried.
Screaming, deceiving and bleeding for you -And you still won't hear me.
Don't want your hand this time - I'll save myself.
Maybe I'll wake up for once
Not tormented daily defeated by you
Just when I thought I'd reached the bottom
I'm dying again

I'm going under
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through

I'm going underBlurring and stirring - the truth and the lies
So I don't know what's real and what's not
Always confusing the thoughts in my head
So I can't trust myself anymore
I'm dying again

I'm going under
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through

So go on and scream
Scream at me I'm so far away
I won't be broken again
I've got to breathe - I can't keep going under
I'm dying again

i can't sleep... its 1:39 am in the morning.. super dunno what.. things don't make sense anymore.. tomorrow always comes so fast.. today disappears in a blink of an eye.. i dunno.. is this how i want to spend my life? i worry for my future everyday.. some how i think i will have a poor future haha.. everyday i tell myself i gotta practise my piano tomorrow but haha ironically tomorrow never comes.. haha.. oh wells i think i don't make sense.. i laid in bed for an hour trying to sleep.. but couldn't.. was disturbed later on and den decided to do some work.. just finished some of my work.. should i carry on? haha.. no one is reading this now.. most people are in bed..only disturbed people are awake.. i dunno what to do.. looks like i'll be crashing in the library tomorrow, plans cancelled.. what's new? i dun care.. neither do you.. oh wells.. we all measure things differently.. and i think i'll do things my way.. since things aren't working so if i fail it doesn't matter cause failure was already on its way.. 2things : a) i fight for it b)i dun care.. this applies when i want things done..well some people already cancelled out option a) so there is only option b) left.. oh wells.. i can't sleep but i might as well lay in bed and try? Shall go do my Qt maybe God will help me den..