Monday, January 22, 2007

my faith has been tested.. God has been listening to my every whimp.. i am thankful he entertained me.. God is wisdom.. i must accept that i cannot understand his ways.. i am slowly getting the idea.. i am so rash.. i wish i had more patience.. somethings i wish i never said.. but thank God for kaimin, jo, the pri6 girls at youth alpha, and today's pastor at serve.. your faith has made mine stronger.. i still don't understand.. but i am slowly accepting the God has a purpose.. that this incident was all part of his plan.. i can see his hand in the incident.." the indian guy" but.. i still can't understand why? i dread to find out if he did all this for me.. to test my faith at the expense of my friend.. i really feel guilty if so.. i hope he didn't sacrifice her for me.. well i could be saying utter rubbish(like i have been the past few days)cause i am just speculating but.. i am slowly finding my peace.. i can't quite bring myself to "blessed be your name" but i am trying to.. and to accomplish that i am gonna seek God.. hopefully he'll enlighten me.. use me.. and forgive me.. i have found my God.. and i hope i can introduce him to everyone through my life( which needs major changes).. this is my new year resolution.. at last i found one..