Thursday, June 29, 2006

big or small it does matter...but it has to be diamond... engagement ring has to be a diamond.. .. it has to be diamond!!!! my gosh if not it'll be forever ringing in your ears.. "ITS NOT A DIAMOND".. its lovely and blah blah blah.. but its not a diamond.. scary huh.. i didn't know until i was reading some book.. like whao.. freaky huh.. she got some precious stone.. but she was like no diamond!!! haha.. diamonds are a girls best friend.. and symbolism.. diamonds are forever just like your love for her.. haha.. right?? so so cool.. so much symbolism.. i think symbolism it way cool and interesting.. how you sit can determine how u feel for a person.. cool huh.. how you give something also reflects.. so so cool!!!> okay crazy... but yeah lalala diamonds are a girls best friend..

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

hmm.. just going through my stuff... my super super old jewellery box... really really really cool.. i found a piece of jewellery that was given to me.. wha.. i thougth i returned it when i left ya.. haha.. i found it.. haha.. so so so weird.. i placed it in a nice pink box.. hee hee hee.. i found the pink box which was empty.. it hasn't tarnish one little bit.. nor rusted.. its been more than a year?... well... wha huge changes ever since.. cool huh... i mean i never thought a person could change overnight drastically.. i mean it only took like 2 months tops? haha.. i mean determination was the key.. like whao.. i never regret but wha.. why wait till i am gone!!! haha.. be satisfied with what i have.. learning lesson from the past, stop chasing the impossible it'll naturally come to ya.. haha.. and plus.. like the fella said.. the unexpected happens when you expect the expected... so yup.. dun chase after change.. it'll come naturally.. haha.. well.. lalala.. i should find a box and throw all the stuff in.. and keep it away.. haha.. i wanna be focus, i dun wanna get off track.. well good nighty people i feel sleepy.. lala...



The more I learn, The more I love The more my heart cant get enough Thats when I love you,WhenI love you no matter what

Monday, June 26, 2006

And when your mad
cause you lost a game
Forget Im waiting in the rain
Baby i love you,I love you anyway

Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind

Saturday, June 24, 2006

When you have to look away
When you dont have much to say
Thats when I love you
I love you, just that way
To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
Thats when I love you
I love you, endlessly

Thursday, June 22, 2006


love love love that's all i have been talking about.. lets discuss something more intelligent..hmmm.. well.. haha.. lets speak of life unfairness.. for a moment i thought i had nothing to say.. haha.. but den well i had inspirations.. haha.. yup... wha.. bad things happen to good people.. its not fair ya know.. i am so nice nad bad stuf always happen to me.. haha.. i feel so so empty.. haha.. no one to talk to 24/7 haha.. i wish i did den i won't be so bored.. ahhh... lalala... so what shall i do... ahh.. tv is my best friend.. i just realise this has nothing to do with unfairness.. haha.. lets see.. unfairness.. well.. nothing happy has happened to me lately i guess.. haha.. i dunno this is a whole bunch of nonsense la.. just like this when i want to say somethin i either forget or no one to listen that's all.. haha.. see its unfair.. haha.. or the blame from other people are unfair and totally not logical and not nice.. that's all..ahh.. like how i got a virus thingy and i actually opened that file which sent it to everyone on my contact list that was online.. haha.. argh.. den ahh.. have to apologise to everyone.. haha i went one by one apologising den haha i figured i could just apologise oon my nick.. so i only informed kaimin terence and cheyenne and johnston.. haha.. that's totally unfair la.. all micheal's fault.. ahh.. well.. yup.. so that's it folks.. haha..

Wednesday, June 21, 2006


oh how i wish to be cinderelle. So ordinary yet in the eyes of the prince she's extraordinary. My theory is that because of his lack in getting to know the commoners of his land, this plain simple girl becomes unique. I have a prince out there is supposed.. maybe i already found one *wink* but will my prince except me even if i am another commoner?unlike cinderelle i am sure the princes now a days are definately exposed to commoners.. so yup.. fat hope of them not being picky.. haha.. who are we compared to the many better commoners.. ahh.. a common girl would have beauty perhaps brains but no status... pathetic girls like myself have neither.. ahh.. hee hee.. so what do we do? nothing lor.. haha.. nothing we can do.. cannot be jian.. at the same time only with power can we munipulate it.. without power you can't do a thing.. so yup.. if only i was out spoken, friendly and nice... plus sweet and gentle and lalala.. not too much to ask...also most important.. well mannered.. that's all i guess.. i miss.. lalala.. well.. good night its late time for me to sleep.. yawns...

Monday, June 19, 2006


True love isn't about sheet music or embossed invitations or lace. It isn't about the size of your bridal party or the expensiveness of the food. It isn't one-sided but two. It isn't selfish but it's generous and patience. True love is what you find when you aren't expecting it. True love is taking the risk that it won't be a happily-ever-after. True love is joining hands with the man who loves you for who you are, and saying, "I'm not afraid to believe in you." A love like that will survive most anything.
To have and to hold,
for better, for worse,
for richer, for poorer,
in sickness and in health,
to love and to cherish,
'till death do us part.

Friday, June 16, 2006

church camp was cool yeah??? stayed up till1.30 everyday and woke up at 7.30... kinda cool huh... but well.. i dunno i am glad mel came.. but wah.. she and jo wah... one second okay next she doesn't like him.. cause he said something or did something.. haha.. well.. den she refuses to talk to him.. spent quite some time with kai min.. though i dunno why.. but like 2 people said he was distracting??? like why? haha... dunno la.. some poeple really can't resist.. haha.. me and mel on the first night talked alot... till about 1.30 in the morning la.. i think i put on weight... time to lose some.. ahh.. i am fat!!! the car ride up and back were both fun.. haha.. my sequencing is terrible but i just keep typing whatever pops into my mind.. hee hee marcus dun like me la.. eveytime i talk about blank.. he whatever me.. only talk to kaimin.. humph jealous.. hee hee.. tonight going out to eat with sarah(school) hee hee.. sakea sushi.. driving kaimin nuts cause i didn't tell him who i am going out with..( hope when you read this you'll have a good laugh..) well.. lets see... i saw lots of ivan during camp.. keep going to his room to find only him in it! and he keeps watching basketball and golf.. haha... why never come to my room!!! haha.. met God at camp.. but what now? what am i goona do about it>? i did my QT... but in a terrible mood.. my mum la... haha... but really.. now what.. jo bugged me about my QT.. i know i still owe him 20 mins... but i forgot during the camp.. only now talking about QT i remembered i owe him... hee hee.. i have tonnes of homework not done!!! ahh... i am so so dead.. how!!! ahh... how!!!! sigh i wish i had someone to accompany me on the phone and do my homework with me... haha.. oh wells.. that'll be cool huh.. den everytime i dunno something i can immediately ask.. !!! well.. i better stop wasting time blogging.. bye.. a song that brought me comfort...


Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wandering heart.

Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.I am yours.

Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again.
Who am I?
That the voice that calmed the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.

Saturday, June 10, 2006

i am going for church camp.. yipee?? perhaps.. i'll let you know when i come back.. haha.. well.. i'll be with all my friends.. haha.. lala.. so cool.. yipee.. most of them at least.. well.. nothing to say...

Wednesday, June 07, 2006


if you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then till I see you again
I'll be loving you, love me

i already type my entry on how i hate life.. but well.. "fate" has it that it shouldn't be posted cause well.. it really disappeared... well.. yup.. so this is it..

where are you? you're missing from my life.. come back..

Friday, June 02, 2006


what's up with life... i have no idea.. where it heading? no idea.. i feel so empty.. like i lost something.. definately i know i am cool with myself... but what's life? meaning of it? life is beautiful everyone tells me, den why, why do i feel so empty.. i have lots of friends... my time is constantly occupied.. maybe i am crazy.. maybe i need guys to fill up my life.. to make me feel well.. good? but i have more than i can handle.. i think? maybe i need girl friends? but that i also have lots.. constantly encouraging me... maybe life is too good for me.. ill stuff has been happening to one or two people around me.. i mean.. what's life man? i have everything.. i am capable.. life is smooth sailing... even during unhappy moments.. i no longer feel like its unhappy.. i dun feel anything.. i laugh.. but i dun really feel happy.. not as happy as i used to feel that is..what's wrong with me? i sleep alot.. i no longer feel hype.. i am no longer cheery.. its like a drag to be fun sometimes.. i just want to sit there and keep quiet... fill my ears with music.. am i running away from things? is that why i am so miserable? i dunno.. life is just so different.. it used to be happy.. is this my fault.. even though sometimes things get tough.. i always had you to be there to cheer things up.. the slightest thing would make me happy.. now the most elaborate things you do couldn't make me as happy.. is there something wrong.. is something happening in my life? am i okay?i am not okay.. i dunno... who am i?

Thursday, June 01, 2006


Watch the sunrise
Say your goodbyes
Off we go
Some conversation
No contemplation
Hit the road
Car overheats
Jump out of my seat
On the side of the highway baby
Our road is long
Your hold is strong
Please don’t ever let go
I know I don’t know you
But I want you so bad
Everyone has a secret
But can they keep it
Oh no they can’t
Driving fast now
Don’t think I know how to go slow
Where you at now
I feel around
There you are
Cool these engines
Calm these jets
I ask you how hot can it get
And as you wipe of beads of sweat
Slowly you say "i’m not there yet!"

This is THE sexiest song.. what makes a song a good song? mind blowing lyrics and the most perfect music to match those words.. that makes the coolest and sexiest and touchy songs.. man i wish i had someone to appreciate real good music with me.. jazz, pop, slow rock.. name it.. its a "silent" thingy.. u need no words between ya... just music baby... the wonders of an ipod! i am crazy over mine.. its practically my baby.. currently i am crazy over marron 5? i have no idea.. it really really attracts me... its really good i guess?cool... funky and great music...maybe cause i am a amature.. so yeah... well.. cool... i wanna watch just my luck and RV... so far i caught like almost everything twice? whta's up with that... similar taste that's all i have to say... at least i have people who want to watch with me!? haha... well.. that's about it.. tht'a all folks!muacks..