Saturday, May 13, 2006

argh.. i am pissed.. i dun wanna talk about.. i am super upset.. life just sucks sometimes.. dun you think it would be better if u didn't have people in your life.. they freaking control your emotions.. i just felt
like freaking cursing this day totally sucked.. i am super sick of looking for the bright side of things.. today.. freaking sucked.. i hate today.. i try my hardest to be nice.. it all sucks la.. its always a fake smile or some nice words out of niceness or pleasantries.. this sucks.. if i ever spoke my mind.. i think everyone would think i am so freaking rotten.. argh.. thank God for 1 good friend.. the only person i would call.. as in dial the number.. probably one of the few numbers i memorised.. argh.. i almost burned the kitchen.. only like 2 mins ago.. i left the fire on... wha.. what else is gonna be added on huh.. argh.. this sucks.. captivation.. slavery.. argh.. a slave to.. argh.. it sucks.. i wish i could hide away.. from my expectations from others and from others about myself..argh.. i am so screwd up.. i hate everything.. i dun feel like going to church i feel like wasting my life.. i am just so angry.. i wish i could just freaking die or something.. argh.. life just freaking sucks some times.. every good thing comes with something bad.. there ain't a single good side in life.. forget about the people around.. cause no one will be there for you.. forget about the people u thought cared.. they dont.. forget about happiness.. cause once u reach happy point.. a huge disappointment is on its way.. practically immediately.. when u want something.. dammit there sure be someone else to steal it from you... i am just so bare.. take all u want.. there ain't nothing left.. God i wish i were free from emotions, pains, hurt, disappointment.. i am willingly to scacrifice happiness contentment and maybe even joy.. i just wanna be free form it all... just free..