Thursday, December 29, 2005

you are always critizing what i write on my blog.. like sigh.. i thought blogs are for me to wirte what i wanna.. why cant you just shut you trap if your have nothing nice to say.. huh..what's wrong with you.. why must you forever put me down.. i feel like hiding in a shell and disappearing!so what if i write sillt stories about love.. or have fantasies and dreams! it aint a crime! why must you always put me down.. why cant i express myself! why must u be a jealous jerk .. why cant i just write what i wanna! why must u always say i flirt.. why must u always say i am interested in some other guy! why cant i if i did? is it a crime! u are suppose to be my friend! why are u treating me this way... we agreed... i am trying i am really trying... i know i hurt u really bad.. but u are driving me firther away than u think.. if i leave this time its only because u made me.. this time i wont come back to undo the hurt i cause you.. cause u deserve it.. u tormented me enough! i am trying to have a life.. with my friends.. so what if most of them are guys? so what! is it a crime! is it!!!!!! why must u make it crime for me.. why must u always hit me under the belt.. why not face up to it.. try to a friend to me just as i have to u .. why must u do this to me.. u drove me away.. u made me sad.. u use to make me laugh.. all u do now is make me cry... please... i want us to be friends.. i dun wanna be mean.. really i dun.. u are my friend.. but why.. why do u always do this to me! i thought i had my freedom in my blog.. even that u want to take away from me.. why do u want me hide alone.. why cant i have friends.. i dun gender discriminate.. why cant i have guy friends? why do u always make it a crime everything i do without u ! i am strong enough to do what i want.. just leave please... please.. i really want my freedom from you.. i feel like i am in a prison around.. pity me and let me be..